seriously?

the next woman of my past that marries some weird loooking fag gets stalked. this shit is getting outta control and i'm not gonna take it. there is one i can fux with, but every other one of yas.....shit, you need to look in the mirror and tell yourself how beautiful you are because you got some esteem issues falling that low into the cracks. damn. not like i'm a free man or anything, like i'm a hit at the first chance i get, but......see i date a 21 year old female, and as a 27 year old man this is kinda weird. because she is in that free bird stage..travel the world and party it up, while i'm in the withering stage, where i get a warm joyful feeling when i get off work and know that comfy pj's and netflix instant are at home waiting for me. now my gf knows this and loves vegetating as well but i feel like i'm holding her back from her dreams and it sucks. i hate being single, but to think that i'm ruining a life is a bigger hate. see, i'm not the ideal candidate for parternership, for one, i already have a 9 year old child. so my location is going to have to be southwestern ohio for a long time. so my options are limited to the classy townies of the dayton/cincinnati area. less cincy more dayton, cause girls my age in cincy are doing thangs, and plan on leaving this awful midwest fuck hole....but not me..i made a promise to my baby mama that i'm going to make things right. i got a job, i have potential (no, not that fake potential that they tell a young buck he has from 1st grade detention and on) but real money making potential. and i'm cool with that, but i feel like my personality is very strong,and when i do express my own emotions i do it with such passion that no girl would leave me to pursue her dreams and that sucks, or maybe they will, and i will suffice to jacking off with the shower running while pretending that i'm taking a shit...meh...it accounts for 95% of my ejaculations already, aint nothing really changing cept the number after the jordans on my kicks.....end scene